I was just thinking about my grandparents, I love them all so much, and how different my life is to theirs. By my age they were married and they had babies. I can’t even imagine being married, or even having a baby. I’m not ready for that stuff; sometimes I wonder if my Grandparents were, or if that was just expected of them. No, I know that my all of Grandparents were so in love with the person that they married. I can’t believe that I could question that.
It was such a different time when my Grandparents were meeting and falling in love. I can’t even imagine it, no internet, no cell phones, just…life. Sometimes I think that simpler would be better. Maybe then I might actually meet someone, have some sort of romance. But really when it comes down to it, I don’t really want a relationship right now. Back then they it was normal to want to get married and have a family, but I don’t really care if that happens. Yes, I would like someone to be there for me, but it’s not high on my priority list.
In my life I have seem women who have been single their whole lives and they live really great fulfilling lives. I use them as role models. I don’t need a man to happy; there are too many women who seem so need a man in their lives and I’m just not interested in relationship after relationship. I believe that if there is a man out there then he will find me. I’m going to use the internet, and I’m not going to hang out in bars or clubs hoping that a guy talks to me. I’m ok with being single.
As for being lonely, it is something that I deal with. I like my freedom, and I’d rather have freedom then a relationship. The one thing that people don’t tell you is that relationships change you. It’s not always in a bad way, but you do change. Right now I don’t want to change. I want to continue to figure out who I really am, and what I really want without someone getting in the way influencing my thoughts.
One thing at a time right?
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